Yellow Fish Scales, Sand on the beach with a papaya in hand on a sunday, and Stardust

I'm sorry guys that I havn't posted. I guess inspiration left me. I look back now and hate hte old me, attention seeking, depressive, prima old me. I'm sorry for running you through tat guys, but you know what, I thank you. I am healing. I am growing stronger, and I am learning. I am accepting who I am. I'm trying to be who I am, and get out of old attention seeking habits. Thanks for giving me will power, and strength, and most of all love. I see htat now. I'm sorry for being so blind, and I thank you for being so kind.

~My new life: Music.
~My new outlook: I am beautifully sexy (still hate my nose)
~My new wish: serene falling, enthrawling falling
~My new sn: xxapathesquexx
~My new sorrow: Limitations
~My new lesson: Keep moving, life happens, and when you crumble, you recycle to something new.
~My new asperation: Letting go
~My newest emotion: fear
~My new person: Under Construction

Slap Happy

For those of you who actually know me, you know what my eye colors mean. They've been doing a funny jade color with a green around the edge today (according to josh) but for a portion of a week they were almost black. Darlings, I need as many hugs as I can get right now. As you know, I try my best to hide my emotions. So right now I'm slap happy. Happy on the outside and crumbling on the inside. I've formed another layer of plaster.Not sure how I'm pulling this one through. I think it has to do with a certain someone who has there for me lately, or is trying... And succeeding because he's a great person. Much different then I originally thought. He's not my father as I thought, he just has some of the same good traits. I finally found my guardian angel. Josh, thanks babe. Couldn't have done it without you. And that SWEET guitar of yours. Can I have the Key from the Center of my Labyrinth back now? I don't think you should be burdened with that much dark info at your disposal anymore.
Since I'm acknowledging friends.... Maya. Darling Dearest Maya. You are the gravity holding me to the ground, and keeping me in a place where there is oxygen. Without you I can't breath. you give me a reason. And don't even think about those damn bitches and bitchos, they'll fade in time. Pine cones can do wonders.
Anna, my little immature keeping-me-young sister. Yes thats right, I said sister. Thats the role you play for me. I know I don't always tell you everything, but I don't tell a lot of people a lot of things. Even ask Maya or Josh, I really talk much. More of occasionally spew, but you already know that. You will always be my lil' sis. :D Who else would keep me young but you?
Nina! you are a diligent poster and reader of my life. The fact that you CARE about what happens to me makes me happy. I wish we could spend more time.
Diana, I wish I could see you more. Your smile keeps me happy, and so does the fact I can talk to someone about slutty things. Teehee... I'm so bad. Love ya doll!

Now back to regular. so. The list has been added to. Damn shadow. For those of you who know what that means, kudos, if you don't, and are close to me, ask what it means. And then I will promptly tell you. I'm hoping for this party to be a pick-me-up but I'm more apprehensive then excited. Kknowing my luck SOMETHING will happen. Someone will fall in the pond, or get food poisoning, or bring boose, or the party will be dull and cheesy or sketchy, the dj will be bad, etc. Just be brutally honest. k? NO GIFTS!!! Don't even think about it. I don't want you to go and buy me a gift. I want a donation for Cancer, lets show that shadow what we're made of. Some of you have found out I except "I love you gifts" anywhere and any time. But they cna't be for something special, and they have to have to have some meaning behind them. It can't be a "I had to go get you a gift because it was your birthday" It should be a "I saw thins/I made you this/ etc. because it reminded me of you." or "I saw it and and thought "MCKENNA". Thats a "I love you" gift. I take those year round. I give them too. Ok. I've given you an escape route. You happy maya? You can give me those Cd's now! :D


Now post you washerschnumps...

OXOXOXOX

"McKenna, how do you make hiking boots look sexy? You even look good with a happy trail!" ~ courtesy of a close friend of mine who makes me happy daily.

crump(ble) club and grind

Dance rocked. I could finally do my style of dancing. So much fun to dance with Kelsey and Marcia. I also loved watching all you freshman, who are still dancing at a middle school level. Bwahaha. Hmm, lets see, I grinded with Ian Anderson, James Dunbar, 3 guys who I didn't know, Taugh NoCo how to grind, attempted to teach nick uncesessfully, and resonably with josh... And al this in stilettoes. Am I now considered a slut katherine, since your the all holy slut namer... VENT RIGHT THERE! Yeah mad at someone for taking advantage of a certain someone. They will be damned in the 7th ring of hell in about 5 years. Thats how long it will take me to write the damn thing.

I'm sick and tired of hormonal hearts. Love, love, love, is that all ther is? the last time I had a decent convo with someone was about 3 yeaeasrs ago, before crushes becoame the soul priority of everyone I kno. It seems girls labbor over their crushes with every moment that they have. What happened to intelligent thought? what happened to reasonably thinking? I'm sick of it. I don't even care that much. Yes, I'll think about it the "do I look good" or "do you think he noticed me?" but it's not my lifes purpose. Message to all of you out there. "get over it." If you like him, talk to him about it when your ready. Or just stop thinking about him. And if he doesn't like you, big deal. There are more fish in the sea.

From now On, I will give advice at the ends of my post.

O & XXXXX

Grab life by the horns, and make sure you're wearing a red shirt while your doing it.

flies.

Life. It keeps going on. It's time for people to start flipping off the cliff, instead of just jumping or avoiding the cliff all together. You only get one chance, why not flip? there is water below to catch you, and that moment of flying, it's so beautiful, so peaceful. I wish I could be forever falling. If I die, will someone creamate me and throw my ashes from some high height, so I'll be in the wind, forever falling, forever happy, forever at peace, at nothingness? at serenity?

If you havn't noticed, I've been sick. I'll be at the dance whether I feel better or not. I've come down twith that somach flu thing. Also NO ONE IS RSVPING TO THE DANCE AND WE NEED A HEAD COUNT BY SUNDAY EVENING FOR THE CATERER'S! so please spread the word. Thank you. and NOOOOO gifts. Just a donation. I don't want you spending that time on me, when you could be doing something better. I mean, we've only got so much time... don't waste it on me. I'm alread a lost cause. I'm all shattered inside. And I have no clue why. Lukily the plaster on the outside is still there, smile and all, so no one suspects a thing. But I'm gone. I've crumbled. I've fallen. Humpty dumpty strickes again. Except this time I'm the wall, and I'm keeping out the pain for everyone, because it's the only thing I feel right and perfect at doing. Take away my friends, and I'm nothing.

Fie on Die, and Di is Nigh

Di and I went to the baseball game, and sortof watched, teehee, more of danced and occasionally looked at the scoreboard, and discovered that I'm a slut and that Diana loves it, and then wnet back to her house and watched The Messengers, a scary movie, which diana wasn't scared of and I decided to get caught up in and make fun of while screaming into my pillow cause it helped to get rid of some of the stress. Being scared. It feelt good.

Diana couldn't have invited me over at a better time. I'm mad at god right now. Major. I mean, how many people can become sick or get cancer in my family? My prayers are going to become 30 minutes long at this rate. No joke. WHat happened to our guardian angels? is he on leave for the big problems, and just there for the little ones? I don't get it one little bit. Grandma sue has fallen to the shadow. She has collen cancer, and has a surgury on wendsday. At least grandpa's still here, and getting better. sortof. So now you understand why I've been so hyper at school. To hide whats really going on. and also, my family, just doesn't get me. I need to see dad, or someone who can understand me, and not just assume I'm a teenager prima with an attitude and lip just to get attention and who only cares about heself and material goods, who is also a "bitch". It's what a certain someone, or two someones think. I'm not that way, am I? Have I really turned for the worst, and if I have, why? What The Fuck is going on with me? I'm lost in translation, with a porclain mask still covering my face, and I cna't break that mask, specially since eveyrone seems to be holding it on, because it's the face they'rve known for thre years, and they don't konw there is another face under the porclain face. Can you guys help me? I'm cracking, and falling apart, and I can't do this alone anymore, though I wish I could. Why should you be burdened with a messed up bitch who should probably be in a shrink house?

~ forever and always...

-where or where has god gone-
Another one has fallen
under the spell of the curse
Only one has fallen victim
it could have been worse
But more and more besides those close
have been devoured by the shadow if not killed
but now all this curse creates is woes
for this beast can not be willed

for this curse has no cure
and it has stared taking
everyone I hold dear
under it's wing.
Whom will it take next?
whose death bed will it loom over?

where, have the guardian angels gone?

Wow, have I chaged.

So I read through everything I've written in the past year, and I really don't like me. So now I'm going to not post on here anymore. If you want to know about me, ask. I just feel like this is a weak shadow of who I really am. And who I was is different then who I am, though who I was keeps coming back to haunt me. So I am sad to report, no more blogspot. I don't think. Maybe occasionally, but not likely. With many loves.

~forever and always...

Post now or forever hold your peace

I've noticed that no one but diligent nina posts, so I'm starting to think it's not worth the time and effort. So comment at the end if you want me to keep posting on blogspot, otherwise I'll prolly never post any more, or at that I'll be seldom.

Mr. Fayroian likes to say crap alot. Found this out on the Backpacking trip. He calls us interprid people, aka adventurus. Take that COMEPARE PEOPLE FROM FACEBOOK!!! It was interesting. If you actually care ask me in person or on IM. Also Dad's was fun. Still if you actually care ask me in person or on IM. Thank you and have a nice day.


oh, and I LOVE YOU NINA FOR BEING DILIGENT!!!

wow, I'mm a lazy ass.

Sorry, just havn't felt like posting. I'll give a REALLY quick summeray of what I've been up to
Blulake: Whas uber fun. I hope to go with maya next year... Diana is in the exact same cabin as I was. I hope she has fun. I was an alto 2 in ssa. For those of you who knows what that means, yes; I have no clue how I got in there. For those of you who don't , ask!! (my way to get comments out of you! mwahaha)
Poetry class: I'm doing VERY well, but I'm stuch with the middle school class. Oh well.I've written some good poems, but I've noticed that non of you check my poetry blog, so unesss if someone tells me to keep it up, I'm taking it down, and you'll have to ask for my poetry, which I will gladly give...
(u ever notice that POEtry has edger allen POE in it? It made me happy... (favorite poet))
I'm going on the wilderness expidition with emmy and 13 other boys next week. Litterally. and the headmaster. So this should be fun... :)

Fun saying: I GRAB LIFE BY THE HORNS. AND I MAKE SURE TO WEAR A BRIGHT RED SHIRT WHILE I'M DOING IT...

Birthday's, Bees, and Brat's oh my

I'm going to Blue Lake Tommorrow, so send me a letter! The address is

McKenna M. Kring
Blue Lake Fine Arts Camp
Central Camp- Villanelle - Moore
300 East Crystal Lake Road
Twin Lake, MI
49457

So, the last time I posted was the fifth. It is now the, what, 9th? anyway, on the 6th it was Joe's bday. He and I went out to the lake house and did some more prep work on the house to get ready for his party (posting about that soon...). I went to rake the weeds out of the lake, and a pair of barn swallows had nested on top of the rake, which had been hunng up against the wall. There were three babie birds in the nest, and they were these cute little fuzz balls. anyway, when we got back home joe wanted to go on a bike ride, so we went down to gallop park (right down the road) and went biking.

Time to post about the party. So, the day was reallly fun. It was JOE'S bday party, so if your parents knew my parents well, you were invited. Sorry for you guys who didn't come. Only two out of the 6 invited came. There were about 50 people total though so, oh well. Maya and Michaela came along with they're families, but Maya's parents and sister left early because they had to finish painting they're GEORGEOUS house. We ended up keeping maya until 5pm on the 8th so her parents didn't have to stop working. Did I mention I LOOOVE the color? anyways, back to the party, I'll post about maya later. The kids: Maya, Me, Michaela, Danny, Eric, Peter, and Jeff went tubing. It was SOOOO much fun. The girls would go together, and the guys would "rotate together. (It's a three person tube). The guys always looked bored or scared, but the girls were always screaming and laughing because we were having such a great time. (Danny, Eric, and Peter are the sons of someone who goes to choir with the parents. Jeff is Marcia's [the wedding planner, and one of the best friends of mom's], son). We also ate brats and hott dogs and smores and went swimming. Maya, Michaela, Sammi, and I had fun pushing Jeff and Peter off the raft. Peter because he was a little annoying, minus the little, and Jeff because he was a guy and it was fun. And Maya found out that I am scared of something in my life. Bees. Anything that stings including needles.

So I mentioned Maya coming over, right? So she and I stayed up till like 3 in the morning venting a hwole bunch of nasty stuff, and I felt really good afterwords. I havn't vented that much since I saw my dad. In the morning we got up, then had breakfast with Joe's family b4 they left (I forgot to mention they came for the party, well at least his two sister and his mother.) THen Maya and I helped to clean up, then we worked on JESSICA'S pants, and I think we should make a buisness. But anyway, then we wnet in the hott tup, and we did an Ab Work out called Hip Hop Abs, and then became even MORE stomach concious because of all the girls with these flat washboard stomachs. Then it was about 5, and we dropped off Maya at her house, which is a georgous color now, and it matches the tiger lilies and trumpet vines. Oh, we found a Beter sweatshirt than Josh's. It's my NYSP sweater. and It smeellls wonderful.It's the one I'm wearing in my facebook photo. If you have a facebook, take my quiz, see how well you know the little things about me.

some fun quotes, tell me if I forget any~

"Dolla, Dolla, Dolla, Dolla!"
"Oceans are sometimes salty."

Ouch...

Sooo, we went out to the lake house on the 4th. As you know, the water level rises in the spring because ice has m ore water and such... This means the algea gets further up on the lawn. So when the water recededs, it leaves the algea on the lawn and then it promptly dies and sticks to the ground for dear life. guess who was the lucky one who had to rake it all up? So now I ache all over, and I have muscles that are tired in places I didn't even know HAD muscles. I even tried motrien. It didn't work. I also cleaned the pontoon boat. Sometimes my body hates that I'm a prefectionist... Bet you didn't know that. If I can't do my best, I'm not gonna do it. I alwasy give my best effort, even to the things that don't really count. Kinda strange, eh? So, happy 4th McKenna. Tons of work, and no fun. But that's selfish, cause mom and joe worked two, they just did different stuff that in essense is easier, but was just as taxing on them. At least the Lake House will be all ready for Joe's B-Day Bash on Saturday... Also, did you know bruises could be green? My riding blunder has left me bruised and embarresed. So, for those who see me this summer, avoid looking at my legs. I look like the kracken got to me and sucktioned off my legs.

I also wanted to thank all my friends hwo have helped me through my funk. This doesn't mean I belive you, but It helped me get though it anyway. So what If I'm not pretty? So what if no boys like me? I've got great friends, and life is good. well, sortof. I'm a half glass full gal these days, so so what if everyone around me is at the edge? It's all good. The fact every single night I've had nightmares, if any sleep at all, it's still all good! cause I got you guys, and I can help you through your problems, or at least be there for you. And you know what? Thats enough for me. I'm going to stop being so selfish, and put you guys first even more. And then you know, maybe I can get through the stuff at home, and my mind, ad the family related shit going on... God's there, he's just on vacation. That's got to be it.

Is everyone gone?

Back from Mackinac... IT was ok.
6/27/07 Car ride to Mackinac. - Listen to Ipod. Mainly heavy rock, country, blugrass, pop, and anything else that could stop the depressive feelings creeping on... Also work on maya's pants, almost finish except a few little stiches. Take the ferry accross, which made me feel great. A gentle reminder for all of you who know this *cough* Wind and fire is my element. I'm a libra, so wind is mainly my element. There for the wind blowing in my face makes me feel better. Why do you think I love hights? Anyway, then went to the stupid kids club thing because Joe had a meeting for work, so that involved a hayride around the island, and a whole bunch of suspicious looking ccnady that had an expiration date of 05 on it. Haloween all over again. yumm.
Then I went back up to the room, changed into pj's and then Tyler and Evan knocked on my door. THank goodness I looked through the keyhole. I poked my head around the corner of the door and said "yes?" THey said Joe wanted me downstairs, so I promptly shut the door after grumbling some kind of oath, and changed again. I then proceeded to come out after doing one of my nitorious quick changes and the boys had left. So I ran all over the hotel, and luckily ran into Joe's boss Mr. Connely. Now, everyone at Joe's work likes me, so he gave me a BIG hug and in my frantic search I said "Hi! uhn, joe has requested that I come join the partym, and I have no clue where to go..." he pointed up to the presidential (or was it govenors) suite. I went inside and there was joe, laughing his head off at some joke. "Next time you want me somewhere, tello me before hand so I'm not in my pajama's when two boys I hardly know come knocking on my door and say you want me down here. And then also tell me next time where the stupid thing is before I go around the whole grand hotel looking for a party that has you in it somewere." "HEY McKenna, would you ask one of the people running this party if I could have a hot fudge sunday ordered up?" I ended up having to lead him up to the room. He was a wee bit tipsy. Not sure if it was the scotch or the Cigars.
6/28/07 Get up in the morning. Have breakfast with the Weldays. Joe leavs for a meeting, and I stick with the Weldays for the rest of the day. Swimming, and Bikeing, and this funny little fair thing that is at the grand. I asked one of the guys there to put his tarantula (so cute!) Mr. Cuddles on my head. He was REALLY cute! I also ran into Rae Schuller. Did you know the schuller's have a house on the island? It's a small world after all. Then Joe asked me to not do the kids program and come with him to the banquet in my mothers place (she was in philly, after waiting in the airport for over 14 hours...Damn Nothrwest). So I got all dolled up, nad looked smashing, and I sat, and ate, and listened to speaches. And I ate every single bit of food on my plate, including dessert. THAT DESSERT WAS HUGE! it was one of the grands pecan balls.
Joe then took me dancing, and I showed him how to swing. We danced in the hall to a swing beat, and then he took me slow dancing and also dancing to "brown eye'd girl". Then he went and had a drink at the party in the govenor's suite, and we went to bed. I read Twilight in 2 hours.
6/29/07 Joe and I checked out of grand, and checked into the Iroquois, we like it much better. We then went horseback riding. Now which one do you think is more impressive? Having taken lessons and riding on rugged terrain ( with rocky slopes) and never falling off. Or never taking lessons, only having ridden a horse three times before on flat easy terrain with a guide, and going on rugged terrain with large hills and rocks without a guide, and falling off your horse twice, and Bravely getting back on both times without fear? I hope the latter, for that is what I did. I had a bit of a fiery horse that was black that shone red (my favorite kind) named Midnight. He had a fiery soul in him. He tried to buck me once, and I held on, but after we went on a REALLY steep hill, like as steep as the first hill you go own on my street, going down, the horse started to TROT and I slipped forward ( I had been leaning back, but his abrupt change in packe swung me foreward) and I held onto his neck for as long as I could, and then I slipped and rolled away like an egg. Then my horse tried to run away, and I spoke in soothing tones and took the reins back, and then promptly got back on the horse by myself. The second time he tried to buck me and succeded. again I spoke in soothing tones and took the reins back, and then promptly got back on the horse by myself. Mom came later around dinner time. We went to The Woods ( a really good resturant) and I had venison and rabbit sausage. Very good.
6/30/07 I think I screwd or mashed something together. I forget what we did... :-/
7/1/07 Nice long carride. Involve me listening to music on ipod, the same types as before. favorite choices to listen to? Josh GRoban, and Vienna Teng's song : Whatever you Want. We also stopped at frankenbooth and had a family chicken dinner. ye haw.

Your probably wondering why I'm sad. I'm feeling solitary. I see all these couples around me, and I look next to me and, nothing. If I was so pretty, I would have my crush wrapped around my finger. or my waist. Or I'd at least have someone who is remotely interested in me that way. But lets face it. THere is NO ONE. In fact, most of the male, and part of the female population thinks I'm a bitch. quote on quote. You so far have no evidence nina. SO HAH!

I also figured out, life is like champagne. All bubbly and happy, everything is happy, joyful, and false. A mere fabrication because of the things we indulge in. We're drunk on lies. Champagne being the happy things in life is really a poison. A poison everyone is drawn to. A tempting, tantilizing, tainted poison. so the truth of the world gets stamped out by happiness, or humans pursuit of it. so the Bubbling laugh of champagne will draw everyone on, when it really is just a HYPNOTIQUE poison...

9th grade, Daredevil, Food, and indulgence

hee, I'll go in order of events. THis is going to be LOOOONG people.

Science exam: Easy sheasy. I <3 ley and her study guids. Couldn't have done it without you doll!!

after exams: I had to go before someone could give me a dare. Wonder what would've happened had I stayed. :-/ I won't repeat the dares here. I will respect peoples privacy. Mahn, maya and me had a great idea! (to do a truth or dare game where you could only do dares!)

Cedar point: why didn't anyone tell me how great an amuzement park is? And how hilarious Carolyn is when she's screaming?so, we got to the park. This was my first amuzement park above teacups (parents). So we walked to the end of the park (less people, smaller lines...) and the water rides opened at twelve. So being a ride virgin, I chose to ride the skyhawk first. and I laughed soooo hard!!!! We proceded to get soaked on the water rides (thats where I first took off my shirt to just be in my short shorts and bikini top) and then we went on a series of scary rides. I'll list some here, though I'll probably forget a few. Raptor, Mantis, Iron Dragon, lazy log (wrong name?), Millenium force, musical chairs, someother kiddie ride with anna, and someothers too. What am I forgetting? But anyway, I had tons of food throught the day, and I never felt nautiated. I almost got a henna inbetweeen the dimples on my lower back, but I didn't, cause I was going to gradma's the next day. :( maybs next year? At the end I watched Kevin, Matt, colin, and Alec ride the sky hawk. Their faces were hilarious. :D. And then I had a fun convo with Alec on the way back. In life he seems like the biggest wimp, but in a scarry situation, he is just as, or more brave then I am. At then end I went to a few of the stalls and didn't win anything. The last one I did for fun, not aiming to win, was a water shooting game against anna, jordyn, josh, and katie. I figured Josh or Jordyn would win. I just shot and aimed. I didn't know I was that good at shooting a gun...:-/. I won a purple whale I named Mangus Poiple (long story). Jodyn and marion then fell in love with it. And I sat on james lap for a while. And It was to long of a line to go on dragster and the inside rollar coster. Grr. Such is life. And I was Mapaya's support. YAY!

Grandma's:
6/16/07 Got up at 2:00 am, rode in car, couldn't sleep (had to keep mom up) and then got to ferry in Luddington. Rode the ferry for 4 hours, then got the car off of the ferry, and drove to Great Aunt Ruth and Great Uncle Fritz's house. Slept over. Played woosh. I won alot of money. I also ate a whole duck. Litterally. Do you know how big a duck is? AND I ATE THE WHOLE THING!!!
6/17/07 Got up, went to breakfest, then drove to Aunt Mary and Uncle Laars's, chatted for a while, then proceeded to drive to gradma's and grandpa's. We ate something largly portioned, as that is the way at grandma's. Natilie (very cute cousin) and her folks came over for dinner, along with Kreisha's (other cousin)grandparents. Kreisha wasn't there.
6/18/07 Spent a day with the grandparents and mom. Played a game of cards, that kind of stuff. More largly portioned meals.
6/19/07 Mom left today... She went up to visit Tom's family (tom being her close friend who recently commited suicide, see entry bloody hell for more...)Grandma and I went shopping for Blue Lake pants, and somehow she got me into a store called Vanity, and she made me find stuff I liked, and you know what happens after that... 100 dollars, 5 shirts. and a coat thinger. OOPS! anyway, found pants for blue lake (navy blue is out of style, it was HARD) at Herburgers.
6/20/07 Went to Kreisha's. Ended up staying overnight. We did a bike ride, and swings, swimming, jamming to the radio, and stuff like that, among pigging out on sugar while watching Norbit... That was her choice. I personally got bored, and she fell asleep. so yeah...
6/21/07 Came home, showered, repacked an overnight bag (this sleepover was planned) and went to Natilie's. It was fun. John Carlos (Jim) was there. We all went on the trampaline with the next door neighbor's and played Crack the Egg. I did really well. We then had dinner, then we put Makeup on Mikka (Nat's little Cousin who was visiting) and he had to keep it on when we went to dairy queen. When we got back, natilie and I put on TOO MUCH makeup, purposly, and then took a load of pictures. We ended up going ot bed really late and we talked about boys and used our yearbooks and camera's to compare. HAHA.
6/22/07 Wake up, pack up, go over to a garage sale of nancy (nat's mom) sister. and I bought 10 bucks worth of clothing. THis includeds 12 tops, and three belts. And it was nice clothing to. They just had a kid who wore things once or not at all, so lucky me! Example: I got a 32 dollar belt for 8 cents... I later made a daisy chain for Mikka, and he thought he was the king of the forest. Yes, I know how to make a daisy chain. You'll never quite figure me out, will you? A girl whose not a sissy, and could easily beat you up, yet she writes poetry, embroiders, sings, and makes daisy chains. I'm feeling a wee bit two faced currently... Natilie had Drivers ed, so I helped out her mom, Nancy, for a while at the garage sale. Finnaly got back to grandma's. Then chatted for a while with everyone, and then ended up going to walmart to print the pictures, had to help natilie find some stuff for her group thats like cheerleaders, but they use flags instead of pompoms. So makeup, shampoo, that kind of stuff. We ended up getting stuck looking at hilarious cards, and came back home at about 10 oklock at night. I just spelled :00 didn't I? lol. We then put together a mini album, that I will finish soon. With more of my photos...
6/23/07 I worked on Maya's pants! I got most of her flip flop done in embroidery. Grandma showed me some new kind of stiches and exclaimed maya's pants are going to take forever. THats why I'm taking them along in the car ride to Mackinac. So I'll prick my finger 50 more times, but what is a little loss of blood to me? At least I'm getting something done for someone else. I come second. Anyway, Grandma and I later went and talked for about 30 minutes while in a gazeebo, waiting for the theter doors to open. It was nice, I opened up to her almost as much as I would to Maya or my Father. I was impressed with myself. After the talk we went and saw Damn Yankees. Good story line, good effects, bad set designer, bad actors. You get hte picture. Picky me, eh?
6/24/07 Church. A whole bunch of grandma's pinching my cheecks and saying I looked like my Aunt Jill. Not sure if thats a good thing. I'd much rather look like my mom. For more then the obvious reasons...
6/25/07 Came back. Started out in Eau Claire, Wisconsin. Flew on quick flight to Minneapolis. Then made another connecting flight to Chicago. then yet ANOTHER connecting flight to Detroit. This saved us about 500 dollars, the trip I took being about 100 bucks total, and the original flight from Eau CLaire to Detroit being 700. YAY!
6/26/07 Unpack Wisconsin, Repack for Mackinac. WHoopie.


so, the whole time I was at gradma's, grandpa was there, but he was mainly sleeping
or in his chair. He's not doing to hott as most of you know, or the some of you who I blabbed to when I had an overload. sorry again. Not really going to talk about it here, cause I've gotton through one day without crying, and I plan ot keep it that way. Oh, and my Uncle Fritz, he has Lemoeneia now(not speeled right!!!)... And a whole bunch of other things, but I told myself I WOULD NOT cry... Ok, I'm stopping now. So yeah. Comment please. And thank you. And I now have a facebook too. I'm off to Mackinac on the 27th, so toodles and farewell for yet another week. My summer is packed!

Quote of the day: "Lead me not into temptation: I can find it myself" - curdosy of a shirt at Walmart...

*hoists A52 off of sholder* Ok Josh, I've come for the black sweatshirt...

Josh. Cruel, unexplainable Josh. Your tantalizing sweatshirt haunts my dreams, and yet you tease me by smelling it and being able to hug it when I am no where close enough to grab it from your grasp for my own gain of happiness. Again, your sweatshirt/smell is an inhalent form of an addicting anti-deppressant that causes you no harm except a strange addiction and an obsession with it... Anyway, done with Civics. Compared to how I thought it was going to be (a blank page)) it was actually pretty good, well at least for me. I mean, yes I had a few unaswered ones, about three, and a few unsure ones, bout 7, and a worry that I completly screwed up on my essay, not to bad... I alwso got a tan. I'm about the color of IDK, maybs sandalwood?

Nw I'm being a copy-copy-copy cat, because it is such a good idea. I have so many friends I want to write posts to, so If I forget you, tell me, and I'll add you in. I probably just forgot you. It isn't you, really, it litterally is me and my non functional brain... In no particular order...

Nina: What else can I say, georgeious LEggggssss, class, and attitude. Your the sparkling image of a painting. Your smile is infectious, and your kindness is boundless, you just have your own way of shwoing it... I love how we can completly be on two sides of an argument and dissagree passionatly, yet at the same time we don't hate eachother and say "YOUR WRONG" in caps... I <3 you and hope that we stay friends for a LOOOONG time... :) and your going to get larger feet soon so you can share shoes with me.

Anna: how else do I put it. Ello, tickling buddy. I couldn't take over any country without you, nor will I ever... You are my kiniving partner in crime. Forever shall I yell "LORD GEoRGE!" and you will be the only person to know what that meeans... Ahh, good times, good times. And don't forget the singing. and the first time I harmonised with you, I distinctly remember you saying "DAMN YOUR GOOD!" and I will never forget the look on your face. good times, good times. Lets make this last for a while...

Jordyn: I know you read this. And if you don't today, even better for me! What else can I say I hate that I like you. You can be a great guy, but you can also be fucking annoying. I kno you think I'm a bitch, but that makes this statement even more understandable. It takes a bitch to know a bitch. I know there is a reely good guy in there somewhere, he's just to busy falling in lovew with a shovel, or just plain to busy getting in trouble. I'm sorry to be so blunt, I hope you mature ofver the summer. Your a great friend really, but you know? I've seen you at WONDERFUL moments. as a friend. Not interested in you that way. Sorryo. My hearts taken by a sweater that is currently in th custody of josh. GRRRRR. oh, and find a new deoderant, you smell better when you don't smell ike your sweat. Turst me. Loves and Adieu, my adorable little punching bag... *pinches cheeck* gotta have someone to have a love-hate relationship with. I need some sorbet right now. Sorry.

Maya: My have we bodned. Who knew it would all start with a simple pencil swish, and then the same love for story writer. I see a long term relationship. There are som many wonderful times i've had this year, and surprisingly most are with you. My Mudd Budd, we shall go back in the stream, My lake Lassie, I will teach you how to dive and SWIM so I don't have to save your cute little ass from drowning. :D My confidante, how many tears and secrets have been inbeeded in eachothers clothes, sheets, minds, and skin? I lost couunt... Ahh, a wonderful day when I can truly say that we started as two people who knew eachothers first and last names, and we have blossomed into busom buddies. :P Lets keep this up. How's a swim sound? Lets keep this up, for ever and always, along with this summer. I should write so much more for you, but I'm afraid it would make the others feel infirior...

Haley: Hey there hott stuff. How many times have I asked for clothing advice and algebra help? I You should know I'm not very good at asking others for help, so thats a sign I really like you. And why wouldn't I? Your smart, pretty, unique, stylish, kind, and so much more. I only wish you could've seen what I said when I submitted you to the greenhills award, hoe bod e m ext ar. Thanks fo isirn, my Maiden of the Stars.

Diana: How much do I love the? Shalll I count the ways? For they surpass the age of time the moon has chaced the sun, always less beautiful, and never quite reaching the sun. Diana, you are my sun. I can be having an awful day, and not tell anyone, and there you are.*POOOF* you smile and *KACHOW* I feel better. I enjoyed little abner with you so mcuh. I hope we can get to know eachotehr EVEN BETTER over the summer and next year. I regret very much that we were unable to attend blue lake togheter.Thank you for always listening to a poem, when I was eger to share it with someone and I took adavantage of the fact that YOU'D read it, even if you didn't feel like it because you'r that great of a friend., I hope that I'll finish Cat Came Back by next year so we can sing it toghther. GOODTIMES! LETS KEP IT UP! <3

AND THIS IS WHERE I SAY YES, I HAVE MANY MORE FRIENDS WHO I WISH TO WRITE TO, BUT NO, THEY DO NOT HAVE A BLOsGPOT NOR DO THEY LOOK AT MINE. So I bid the Adieu, and perhaps we shall see eachother soon, so keep in touch to your best ablilaties, I know I'm hard to reach. Lylas and Lylab (the lylab's for josh and his sweatshirt). :)


WHY DOESN'T ANYONE COMMENT???

Oh where oh where did my commentor's go?

Here: discription of my study habits.
~ Reread Sunflower word for word
~ got a tan while going over literary terms
~ Got more of a tan while studying latin
~ bang head on desk
~ more banging and mass eating of sorbet
~ restless night of sleep
~ get up at 6:15, 15 minutes b4 alram rings
~ realise that your 15 minutes early
~ sleep for 10 minutes more
~ "get up" at 6:30
~ go to school and cram
~ take english exam that isn't so bad
~ cram for latin and scream
~ teach and spot maya while shes doing a cartwheel
~ have maya have the startaling realization that I have emense upper body strength because I love to tumble, and I used to take gymnastics
~ take latin exam (uch)
~ steal lauren/ josh's propel and take a sip without touching my lips to the bottle!
~ have Josh be fascinated by my little tub of tumms
~ finally be realeased by Jefallen, and realising thats the last time I'll be taking latin... WAHOOOO.
~ go outside, have anna tickle me
~ pick up a siries of people in a sholders carry and spin them
~ have jordyn run away beacause he knows I CAN pick him up.
~ chace nick and tickle him with my PINk (parner in naughty Krime) Marion!
~ go grocery shopping
~ come home
~ bring in groceries
~ sort wash for mom
~ write post for Blogspot
~ currently writing on blogspot
~ still writing on blogspot
~ this is spaceballs all over again
~ realising I forgot to mention Maya and my Genie hair
~ now I've mensiooned it
~ (from the tv show I dream of Geni)
~ its an old tv show
~ but I'm sure you've seen the typical arm cross and the head bop and then something happens, no?
~ NTS: Have to show you later...
~ what else do you want from me?
~ your wish is my command
*crossess arms and bop's head* "*doink*"

Maya and I slept with Josh because he smells sooooo good.

So Maya was over as my study buddy. It rhyms, deal with it.

for the study part: We studied, and we laughed, and we talked, and we talked about the energy transfermation that took place when maya spun and hit the couch and then was rolling on the floor laughing. We also proceeded to take a bike ride through gallop park and told eachother the story of Sunflower and Mockingbird. We went all the way to the next boatlaunch and then sprinted back to the house, because we had 15 minutes to get back, and we got there exactly at 8:00 on the dot, and then found out dinner was running late. So we procceded to go upstairs and comfort eachother about our lovelives and draw cartoons.

for the food part: for dinner we ate outside on my veranda. Maya noted that when we came back inside I didn't lock the door, and I explained I never did, for what was the point, who would sneak into my room, which procceeded in a lot of giggiling. But anyway, we had shishkabob of lamb and apricot and onion that had been grilled. We also had this rice stuff, that left a sauce that was a neon yellow. Seriously. So first I went to the place of "is mom poisoning us?" and then we proceeded to make jokes about how a little kid might talk to her parents. Example
Parent: Where'd you get the highlighter?
Kid: from my fooooood...
We then ate a fun dessert while watching a movie, which I will tell you in my next paragraph. In the morning, my mmoom was soooooo sweet and brought us breakfast in bead. It was parfait, and orange juice, and lemonpoppyseed biskit thingers. and it was on a tray. we ate half of it in bed and half of it outside on the veranda.

for the fun part: WE watched lady and the tramp. And we laughed at what a great movie it was. and how the animals had human eyebrows. and how a bench dissapeared because it was morning. and people behind the main characters were freezeframed. and the funky green puddles. (you get the picture) Then we wnet to bed and chatted and listened to music. and there was friverous texting going on all night. And now she whom will not be named feels loads better. yay!

oh, I should explain the title. So maya had Josh's sweatshirt. Has anyone ever noticed how GOOD he smells? so we slept with "josh" we shared "josh" and we snuggled with "josh". Wherere we would go josh would go. I think he's an inhalent form of an Anti-depressant. And then later when we were snuggling with josh, we figured out that he smells like sweet woodsmoke/bonfire. and he must not sweat cause the whole sweatshirt smelled SOOO GOOOOOD. And we later proceeded to figure out that Maya likes guys with a minty aftertaste. (long story). People say the way you drink your tea is the way you like your man. (thats all I'm giving you...) And Maya smells like sand. If you want to figure out what someone smells like, smell in the crook of their neck. Cause their inside of the elbow (whats that called I wonder?) smells like one of the attributes of your favorite tea. anyways, Maya smells like Sand, I smell like that wheatstuff you find in a meadow (long grassess with the little grains at the end) and the crook of my arm is somewhere in between green tea and chai. I wonder what Josh's inside-elbow smells like. I have no hope of finding what his neck smells like. That would be akward for him. We also talked about songs that describe us, and elements that are like us, and others. I will not list them here, for some were mean. :-/ Well, I give you a pat on the back for reading all of htis. Now post please!

THeme of the day: clothes

KK. Well, we left off at the dress mascerade...
As you saw, I was stunning in an orange dress with cool COMFORTABLE heels, and pretty jewelry. and my hair was cool. Then Abigail wore the dress to graduation that I had planned to wear to neutral zone, so I had to change plans incase if she wore it to neural zone to, that way she wouldn't feel bad. So I ended up wearing the black and white dress you all saw. So basically now I've cought you up on clothing.
uhm, don't know what else you want to know. Dad was there for the choir consert and when I revcieved my award. The lights do wierd things to the adience, I could've sworn he was crying. Joe didn't come to either. He was there for graduation though.
Uhm... going back to neural zone, It was fun. I enjoyed dancing. I cna't wait untill high school, where you actually CAN freak dance. and you get boys who actually can dance. For a while the dance was an eye opener. I want a guy, but one that is kind. one who respects me. and the only boys in our grade like htat are already taken or not into my type. But then, I have yet to find someone who is. I was nice and got Chris to dance with Anna bye batting my eyelashes and saying nice things. I hate those moments in life where I realise I could really be one of htose naughty girls... :-/
and somethings happened at the dance ot a firend, I just never could find the opertune moment to put my heel through Nolan's foot. Yes I was wearing spiky heels. They are georgus! I love them. anyway...
That leads us to today. My choice of clothes for today was a tank that shows of my midriff, and short shorts that are black. and bare feet. Maya's coming over to help study at around 4:30ish. We'll probs go on a bike ride later. wow, I jsut realised I'm so subconcious about my stomach that I jsut did 50 crunches and a minute of bee sitts just in hope it would be flatter... :-/ I need to work out more during the winter. pull ups only do things for the arms... And then I chatted with Nick to try to up his spirits, and mine. He's a cool person if he isn't trying to look goofy. I like him, not the blundering annoying clown he sometimes can be... Judgemental picky me, eh?
anyway, POST YOU WASHERMATIOUS peoples. oh, and new poem. If you actually are going to take the time to read it, post that fact, otherwise I have no reason to take the time to post it.

CAT came back... Cause it was the Cats Meow.

Thursday. paraphrasing: MAdrigals, sucky feelings, labels, and no venting.

After school Haley said my life should be a movie. HAH. Movies are supposed to be happy arn't they? and intruiging. And funily titled. MCKENNA'S LIFE. sounds like fun... Anyways, I started to vent and then stopped myself. Holding it in is better for me, I just every once-in-a-while need to spill a bit so that It doesn't all come crashing down. If everyone who knows me well got toghether, you'd be amazed at what you'd find if you put all your knowlege today.

Labels. Well somebody *cough*Aj*cough* basically said I was a fantasy freak and that I read way to many books for my own good. Then Nick procedded to ask for lead by saying "McKenna, dragons are real. Can I have a piece of lead?" like that would make me give him a piece? Is this really how I'm viewed? Well here's a fun fact I bet you didn't know. My favorite book is The Wish House by Celia Reece (speeled wrong?) Its a relistic fiction book. Loved the pure vulnerablility of it. Great writing style. A little graphic? ANyways, I love it.

Now I've vented. SEE ANNA I VENTED.

Ok, now I continue on to the Graduation dress mascarade. So, I was origianally going to just wear the dress from the wedding to graduation figuring "what the hell. It fits and it's nice. and it would save mom money and a trip to a store. So there! I'll just wear that. I'll look like a cow, escuse me sow no matter what I get. And anna better not forget my jewelery, being a nice big loud jeweled cow bell." Then haley opened my eyes to the fact that the dress was infact to dressy. So now I have to find another dress. And mom has to pay for a new dress. And I feel bad about it. And I will laugh when I end up wearing some 60's skirt with a Poodle that mom and I have discovered in the depths of the old dresses. LOL. not really. I have SOME pride.

I MISSED LIFE!!!!

Lil' Abner is over!!! therefor no more agonizing hours of practice. MY LIFE IS BACK. just in time for exams. Wahooo...

Comments on the last post? Well, I had to vent. Sorry. I'm just having trouble with my stepdad at home life. And how he treats me. ANd mom. And I just want to clear it up that I and My mom love him, we just miss hte old him. THere is more behind this story that only a few of you know. I'll keep it that way.

In my private life I don't want to discuss whats been aching me and biting at me lately. Most of you know I have trouble opening up to people. Its just how I am. No offence to anyone who I don't spill my guts to. ANd to those who think I spill my guts, thats only half of a half of it. Yes, thats 1/4th. I'll tell you one thing and thats it. My dad missed his flight out here bcause of an accident on the highway. It slowed traffic down. THerefor he could not see Lil' Abner, causing him to miss the first show he WOULD have seen me in. ITs a touchy subject that makes me sad. Just be careful. Eggshells people. Eggshells.

Lo and Maya. I love ya both. I love almost everyone though so let me rephrase. I don't hate either of you. :) Rumors can get blown out of proportion and things not ment to be mean can be. Sarcasim becomes realisim, Truth becomes Tainted, and Thin Air becomes heavy liquid. Truth isn't supposed to be like taffy, streachable. Have the time it doesn't even streatch to far. But the truth is these days things get blown out of proportion. So Maya, my heart goes out to you. Accusations about you have been false. Lauren, through no fault of your own Maya got on the whisp of the wind something bad about her. She realises that your not her BFF, but she thought that you hated her, which hurts anyone, getting her to act in an accusing and stone set way. Not saying either of you have to apologise, just clearing up messess here.

Since I haven't posted for about a week and I'm to lazy to post everything I'll do bullet post highlits of my past week.
~ Playing "Sloop John B." on Josh's guitar
~ Finding out I'm not the only one who composes songs on instruments.
~ Play being over!
~ Taking a nap.
~ Wearing baggy black clothes today because my nails looked nice (so I had to look bad.)
~ No HW weekend.
~ Almost finding sleep (sleep, what is it? It's a lost concept to me)
~ HITTING THE HIGH NOTES IN "DEARLY BELOVED" (thats out of my range...)
~ Diana and I are doing a quartet for quaduation (so is Josh and Jordyn. Happy bout josh, Jordyn is quite the contrary. I'll probably now have to hear him yack in my ear now at every practice. Why am I his constant victim?)
~ Discovering I'm sick of love and that I'm just going ot live my life. Crush free. I'm sick of stepping on glass to find that what I thought was something that could mend my heart wasn't a needle and thread, but empty space, or a knife.
~ Writting my own and others great thesis's
~ I'd go on, but I think I'll stop.


NOW POST YOU WEOIRUISHUMPS.

Later post:
I <3 you too nina! AND ITS MR COHEN'S FAULT!!! YELL AT HIM!!! :D

Mozahs/Istae Mater's Day And Monday

Maama's Day: Joe is a jerk. B4 I shatter his perfect image, I will stop myself. But he is a Dickhead and Asshole If I ever knew one. But Mom loves him, or at least what he usud to be, and so I will to. He's just doing, wait no, nevermind. Sorry if I'm being cryptic here, but I said I was NOT going to rant about Joe. So just cross out everything I've said up to here.

For Mothers day, I couldn't get anything for her, because I didn't have anyone to take me out to get a gift, or any source of revenue to speak of. So I made her a Computor treasure hunt. I gave her a list of clues to follow through a bunch of folders until she finally came to a document, which had the lyrics of "You are hte sunshine of my life" and 2 of my poems. She welled up with tears and gave me a huge hug. I forgot to mention that the usb that the treasure hunt was on and the note telling the instructions was inside a Music BOX that played you are the sunshine of my life when she opened it. I kept it of course, cause It was one of mine. It just was a cute thing to put it in.
And I also talked to a bunch of friends. I give kuudoo's to Josh, Nina, and Maya for being there for me, and Diana toooooo.

Today.
School was normal. Not to much hw, so I's happy. There was basically no one at play practice, so we ran through act one. Diana and I are sick or we have alergys or our feminine problems are making us feel bad. And neither of us are eating because we're not hungy. And we're tired out from lack of time to do hw. You ask when we have freetime? WHile we take our ZzZz. Uch. Plays next week, and you know you want to come and support it, right? The 24th and 25th at 8:00 (thursday and Friday) Post if you can/will come!!! And yeah. Thats my non existant life. But I'da crashed and burned without you guys as my faithful companions!!!

I'm litterally smoking.

3:00ish draft saved
I got up and promptly had a fight with my mom because I had cleaned my room instead of tacking the dog out. After \I cleaned the dishwasher we snuggled and watched cooking/remodeling shows for a while, and were no longer mad at each other, even though we didn't ever say sorry or anything. Then we proceeded to go into the sauna and the hot tub naked. TMI? Well, Carpe Diem. This is my mom's futile effort to help me get flawless skin that doesn't have the achne and rashes etc. I laugh at her pining efforts.
When I got out of the sauna, I literally was smoking or steaming or something. Funny eh?
I completely forgot to tell you about Maya on the last post. So Maya, I'm here for you. I'm sorry that your heart is already being wrenched out by a guy. quote of the day. "Maya, in high school, your gonna break so many hearts." Maya replied "I gotta fix my broken one first."
I have the house all to myself tonight. Parents have a work function. Yeah boys, you can climb up to my balcony cause I'm to lazy to lock the door on my veranda out side my room. Its a complex lock that involves turning knobs and lifting door handles. Lmao.

Later installment: 6:18
Shorbet, TV, Boredom, Carrot cake, Carrots, letter writing, script studying, Pizza, and loneliness. and chatting with grandma. And worrying about grandpa. and I need a hug.

PWETTY EYES!

yesterday was pretty, well fine. Uneventful. Cept grandpa's back in the hospital. Today was pretty norm to. I bet it was a senior who pulled the fire alarm. A I want to remeber this moment. I start ballroom dnacing on monday in wellness!! :D I'm going to laugh at some of the boys as they ATTEMPT to dance. There are some things in gym that I'm good at. I think ballroom will be one. Anyway, I'm too lazy to post more. I'm going to the dance, so see you all there (If your not there, your a square!).

Oh, and did anyone ever notice how GEORGEOUS Josh's eyes are? (I don't care if you read this, but don't get any ideas.) Seriously. I just noticed while waiting for the frissbee in Gym that he has these blue eyes that just melt you, there so stunning. Were they always that color?

LAter post: 10:53

Hey boys hey boys, whatcha gonna do, whatcha gonna do when I try to dance with you?

Dance was fun. I wore my tight embroidered jeans, but I ran out of time and couldnt finish the second butterfly on the right back pocket. Did it look ok? Anyway, had a ball, danced with a few guys. Kuddos to Kevin who noticed me alone, and nice dramatic touch "MCKENNA, WHERE ARE YOU? HAS ANYONE SEEN MCKENNA?" when I was standing right in front of you. I also want to thank Josh, Xander, Devite, Chris, and Carolyn for dancing with me. :) and Jordyn, I only asked you to dance cause you looked lonly standing in the middle of the dance floor all by yourself during a slow song looking smug! and you said no, so I went to colin who looked like he needed to dance or do SOMETHING, and he said no, and then I went and sat in the corner next to anna, figuring my hour of glory was over. Fast dances were fun to. I found myself Laughing and Dancing and Working and shaking my Ass and Hips off
does that make me sluttish?
Anyway, I had fun, and my top made my eyes stand out more. yes people they are GREEN, and no, theyr'e not colored contacts. :)
And Joe picked/dropped Me off in the Porshe. Wasn't sure what do do with the attention. *blushes.* It was funny to watch two of the 7th grade boys run out at the begining of the dance to just watch the porshe drive off. :-/

Comments are welcome. Adieu and Goodnight everyone. Sweet dreams. And take some time to read my poetry! (my other blog)

the McKeister (also known as shee who has an ass and hips!!! LMAO)

SIRRYYYYYY

Sorry about last post. Depressing. So, uh, yeah.

5/7/07
Mr. Wonderful and His other half came over for Mom's big buisness meeting thingy. His real name is Mr. Porter, and he rePORTS (haha) to my mom for work. I just have liked him since I was little, and both mom and I agree he is the only MAN on htis earth. Hes macho and all that, but hes kind and sweet, and doesn't groan when he has to help with the dishes. He even watches American Idol (not my thing, but I'm just throwing out examples.) But what makes him truly great is that Hes kind and considerate, thinking about others, and he REMEMBERS things. Like my birthday! Joe can't remember my birthdate or year even though hes been reminded for 3 years now, and he heard the date many times because of the wedding, and its his annaversary now. (Hes getting better though! :-/)

5/8/07
Mom had her big buisness thingy. And Iwent to school. Whoopedydoodles. Play practice was, well, lets not go there.

5/9/07 TODAY. and ditto to the previous comment, minus the mom buisness thinger. So my alarm DIDN'T work this smorning, and yes I checked. It had been on. I usually get up at 6. Well, at 6:45 mom shakes me and says, "McKenna, you're alarm didn't wake you up. or something." "What time is it?" she states groggoly, still waiting for her buzzer to go off an hour or so later. "6:45." She leaps out of bed, and says "oh SHHHHHHHIIIOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUTTTTT." she then procedes to scramble around her room to get her things together as her mom says "Your leaving with Joe in 15 Minutes." - end narration. Then I bassically took 3 minutes in the bathroom. (that was NOT fun.) I grabbed a scrunchi and a headband on the way out of the bathroom, and I did a kooky bun, as you saw today. It takes about 10 seconds to do. Then I rummaged and blindly grabbed something to wear, and while throwing my nightgown off and my bra and underwear on I proccedded to hop over my sprawled school stuff on the floor to go over and find a pair of earings that would tie together my "put together in the dark" ensamble. I got downstairs at about 6:52 and took Luna out. I than ran faster than I do at the end of the mile up my steps and packed up my bag in 30 seconds, a new record for me. I was downstairs at 7:04 and I didn't eat b-fast. Hence the Kilachies and my carnivorous eating habits in latin. I WAS STARVING. So excuse my non ladylike habits when I'm hungry. other than that, day = uneventful.

Wait, I'm wrong. It was raining so beautifully. Every drop made its own symphony as it splattered against the ground, its own three D masterpiece as it creciendoed in height, like dancers on those ribbon ropes, minus the actuall rope. So I went to go outside into the rain, and guess what. It stoped exactly as I walked outside. SO DEPRESSING. I was planning to spin in it, and let the rain wash away my own tears, and help me find my inner self, my inner calm, my inner happiness. Didn't work out. BUT DIANA GOT TO ENJOY THE RAIN. Just like the scene in the notebook! so romantic. :p. not even sure if it happened THAT way or not. Just know that Diana had fun in the rain. :) I <3 you diana! and all the wonderful promiscuous, scandalous, and filuptious things you do! We're in this together, well not litterally, but metephorically. And no, don't even think that your that. I WON'T ALLOW IT!!!

fucking bloody hell.

Basically, everything is just "peachy." this is sarcasm.

but before I pull you down into my dark dank pit of depression, let me show you the good things. I'm going to a great school, with great friends. I have a great family, even though Joe can be, well, Joe, and I am not abused or anything of the like.

Maya came over for a last minute sleepover literally. It was 10 minutes b4 my parents left. so it was fun. For a while we tramped though a stream that was really muddy, but clay mud, and it was fun. Then we went in the hot tub, watched a movie, and went to bed, eating waffles in the morning. Maya helped me feel loads better. I <3 Maya.

I edited my blogspot to look more cheery. And Bubbly. So basically, I'm growing out of my Fantasy stage. Yes I'm still the same person, yes I still read fantasy and fiction books, yes I still have my morbid, cynical, dark, kiniving, miscevious, and much more streak, but at least I won't depress YOU as much. Arn't you proud of me Josh?

Now if you don't want to be dragged into my depressing pit, do not read the rest of this post. Actually, I would advise you not to read the rest, for I'm venting. and well, I don't necessarily want you to hear this.

Uncle Tommer died. He was a close friend of the family. I hardly new him. He lost his father a little while ago, and he has been bad since. He was one of the best men on earth, he thought of everyone else before himself, he was gentle, and when he got mad he never yelled. He committed suicide. He had written out a will stating everything he wanted to give away with specific meanings down to the last vase. He was supposed to be evicted a few days later, so he figured someone would find him. he put a note on the bathroom door basically saying that "I killed myself, don't come in here, just call the police." He first tried to hang himself, but the rope broke, so then he drank cleaning fluid. I also miss Uncle Ed who previously died of cancer, because I wanted to know him better, and I didn't get a chance to. My grandpa wasn't supposed to live this long (he also has cancer) but now hes having a bad response to Kemo, and It seems we might go out to Wisconsin on the weekend after Memorial day to see him, just in case. Also mom's friend Spencer was just diagnosed with a cancer that is rare, and without any hope of survival called pancreatic cancer. But Joe doesn't want to let her go down to see him, because he thinks that shes cheating on him. Which she is not. He doesn't trust her, and isn't there for her right now when she needs him. Tom was here best friend. and while she cries, he just stands there. And she can't even go to Tom's funeral, becasue her biggest work function is going on right now, and she can't get out of it without it costing her job. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. I may delete this later. I just am, sobbing. YES I'M CRYING. and I don't know what to do... And the play is foreboding, and my Tequila Mocking Bird flew out of my cubby so I can't do the reading this weekend, but what else is new? Also I'm scared to death that I'm going to forget my lines for little abner, even though I know them like the back of my hand, but thats the least of my problems. damn I need a hug. Anybody have a cyber tissue?

does no one ever comment?

common guys, I would appreciate it if you'd comment. At least go to the poetry page. Is it that much to ask for? Sorry, in a bitchy mood cause of, I'm not going into it. Maybs I'll tell you at school if you ask, but otherwise, its hard for me to say it, ok? SO GET OFF MY BACK. I don't care if I'm being cryptic, its just personal. thank you and have a nice day.

Oh, and Josh. STOP THINKING ABOUT IT!!!

Oh boy. Reality is back.

So, on the 28th, I became really disappointed in Jordyn. We didn't have Drama because Mr. Early had to take sick leave, so we had choir. But Jordyn didn't WANT to go to choir. So he told a series of people we had work session, so him skipping class didn't look suspicious, because for all Mr. Cohen knew, It had been a Work Session. Want to know how I know this? Because he picked me to be the first person to tell his grand scheme, and he tried to get me to share in it. I'M SORRY but I don't lie to people. I told him that I wouldn't respect it if he skipped by himself, but dragging others down with him to hide his own Lack-of-enthusiasm for Choir was abominable and that he had sunk to an ultimate low. He doesn't care about others, just as long as it suits him fine. So for those of you who fell for the folly, I'm sorry.

This Weekend I have TON-O-HOMEWORK. But My Favorite Cousin Deanna and my Aunt Denise are over, so its been fun. Deanna and I pulled out crazy clock (a game quite like mouse trap) and we couldn't put it together for the life of us. We took 15 minutes banging together two pieces until we realized that one of them was upside-down. It was sad. When we finally finished not one of the sequences worked. We felt very dumb, and we thought there should be a disclaimer on the box reading "only smart people and children can play this game." Its a game for 3 and up. How sad is that? And then we went downstairs and tried playing twister moves, like twister but with dancing, and we failed miserably. Then we tried "Sweating it to the Oldies" with Richard Simons. Its one of those old VHS exercise tapes. It was funny. There was this one guy who we dubbed Jiggelo, who had these sporadic jazz hands. or should I call them spirit fingers? Anyway, I stopped the torture, and we ended up playing scene it for a while, but we went on party mode. We were to lazy to play on a board. We also went to a choir concert of my parents of the Ann Arbor Civic Chorus, and it was ok. ok, meaning ok. When we came back I worked on my homework. did everyone have this much? Reading two chapters for mockingbird, Studying for Civics, Writing a paper thingy for science, two Math Homeworks, and script studying. It took FOREVER. And we ate and watched the guardian. And we probs did more stuff together, and we talked, and ate, and I'm repeating myself, but anyway it was fun. But they have to leave tomorrow. Well, I think I'll turn in, but does anyone else in the play feel like there's this huge shadow looming over your shoulder of how your going to balance play practice every day up to the show (except the 7th) and how are we going to balance our homework, and be ready to do the play by the 25th? we've only got 4 weeks left. AIEIEIAIAIEAIEIAEIEAEIIE!!! HELPME!!!

~Sorrow - drowning in perpetual tears (kidding, more like looming shadows) :p

The 26. oh boy. (no emphasis)

today, was, today. Floor hockey was fun. My favorite thing is when by mistake I made jordyn wipe out on the floor. oops. No latin, so YAY. Latin tommorw with quizilidink, so BOOOO. uhm, typical day.
Play practice = felt like a freak. Everyone was looking at me like they were dissapointed in me because I didn't know ALL my lyrics by heart. I just CAN'T DO IT. GALL DARN IT WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?!? Am I really that much of a dunce? I'm more of a dunce than J T Cornpone!!!

Oh, and Caroline Million is going to feed her daughter to the crows, because they like fat meat.

~Sorrow

4/25/07

Quote of the day provided by Jessica

"If you touch me I will cut off your balls and then fry them, proceeding to feed them to my hamster."

Lauren replied "Your hampster would starve."

This was during our latin party. FUNFUN NO BODY WANTED MY PASTREIS THOUGH!!! oh well., Actually Nina and Mr Allen liked my Crab/Shrimp pastries, so actually a sombody did what my pastries. (I'm refering to Nina, Mr allen is a nobody. :P ) Other than that pretty univentful. So yeah.

Late at night I made a mistake. Well no, it was more of a "Miss comunication." Basically I wasn't a close enough friend with somebody, so they didn't understand I hate it if I would say something like "I suck" and they would reply "NO YOU DONT". I hate getting pity. If I say something like that, just play with it in a anyway tone, like change the subject. But in essense they said they don't like talking to those type of people, therefor they were going to stop talking to me. Before I could explain how I am to the person, they loged off. So yeah. I was myself, and they didn't know me well enough to know that I'm not a pitysucker. (those who suck compliments and pity out of those around them.) Well, at least now YOU know that. :) and that was my day on the 25th.

~Sorrow

UCH.

I feel sucky, oh so sucky, I feel wretched and down with the plight! And I pity anyone who feels like me to-oooh-night. I've got headaches, a slight fever, my phlem's color is very obscene, for I feel weak and surpassingly green!!!! See the girl in that beed there, who could that miserable girl be, such a face, should be put to discrace, such an unhappy everything! such an unhappy everything! *sung to the tune of I feel pretty*

Yeah, basically I wasn't one of the ones who went to the couscous dinner. But I feel sick for other reasons. I've got a slight temp, my phlem is green (EWWW), my body feels achy and weak, my throught hurts, I have a slight cough and a runny nose. So I didn't come to school today. Poor me right? Can you guys tell me what was for HW and what we did in the classess, so I can catch up?

EDIT: did new question in my profile.

Random Question:
Lionesses have no manes. How do they know when they've grown up?


when the male lions with manes start pouncing on them.

Random Question:

your traped in a well with a goat and a slinkey. Describe how you will escape.

I play with the slinky while waiting for an Idea to occur to me. Then I pinch the goat so that it bleats so loud that someone hears it and rescues us. and the slinky.

Random Question:

You've been invited to a fancy ball but the only thing you have to wear is an orange wooly jumper. What shoes do you wear?

Pink rihnstone heels or Cowboy boots. Duh.

Does anyone ever comment?

DITTO!! comon guys, I only post about my life so you'll post back, please chip in and post a little. thanx.

NY and fully updated up to date.

So after DC I proceded to ny after a 10 hour long drive I got home at 8:30-9:00. What did I miss on the bus? OH! and you guys made me happy right before I left. As I went to go, I felt like one of those football players at the bottom of a dogpile (in a good way!!!) when I said I was going, because all the girls seemed to come hug me. Well, not all of them, cause I'm not that close to them, even though I think there cool.
So got to NY. While we were there we saw Wicked. YAYAYAYA!!! funny story on the tickets. So you all probably heard about the craze in NY for tickets and how to get Tickets for Christmas well, your to late to get them already? and how they're sold out every night and its VERY HARD to get tickets? Well on monday, Dad had called up Russle, a friend of ours. He called the composer for tickets, he didn't have them. THen he called someone else, and VALLA, we litterally had the best seats in the house for wendsday. And I'm not kidding. We were center, main floor, Row D. Great story line. But of course I would like it. A green girl that doesn't fit in and ends up being WIcKED, or at least called that, when shes really not, just because she's different? And its actually the WIZARD THAT"S EVIL. Read the story if you can't see the play. well, I havn't yet so what am I saying?

Dads was fun all in all. WE had DAVID BENOIT do a jazz concert, and there was this cute drummer named Jamie... anyway, David Benoit is the man who is famous for playing the theme song for Peanuts. He is a wonderful Jazz musician. Even if you dont' like jazz you should listen to him sometime. And I got him to atograph my CD because I saw him after the show. I was TEck. Of course. A circus came then later, but they were subliminal. Fun to watch them set up. They walked on the poles that held up the curtains on the stage to get their ropes and such up. Dad and I also saw alot of movies. I mean ALOT. Flika was reasonably good.a The last Mimzy is childish, so only see it if you really love your really younger sibling. :-/ Blood and Chocolate isn't out yet, and didn't have time for Underworld Revolution. What else can I tell you about? HE and I talked. alot. He knows as much as I do about you guys. Well, not your secrets, but your backgrounds. He is my journal and my notebook. but he's even better. BEcause he gives advice back. Carla took me on a tour of downtoun. Its her backup job. Shes the one who writes movies w/ or w/o my dad... Most people in NY have backup jobes, because all in all there are about 7 people in NY who are not an actor or someone else who is on a low income. IE they need a backup job to pay the rent. I tink thats it.

I'm going to lunch with Nora and James today. And I had a fun convo with Kevin at about 11. I stayed up until Midnight. Again. I'm a nightowl. If I did clubbing, I would be great. One I can dance, two I don't fall asleep, and three I'm not an alchi or a druggy. YAY ME!!!! Luckily I definatly don't. Theough John has mentioned that when I'm older hes taking me as a babe magnet for him. For him, Babe's are guys. So yah. Fair trade off I guess.

DC

DC was cool. and fun. I spent alot of time with Rebecca. One of the highlights for me was looking at art with Diana and Jordyn. I was also really moved by the holocaust, and its not my heritage. The Iluminated Monument tour was good, but that was the night I twisted my ankle, hence steve giving me a cast thingy made out of this greenfoamtape stuff and white tape. fun. (sarcasim) Do you know how hard it is to walk in heels with a twisted ankle? George M was awful!!!!! and thats saying something from me. I'm usually a I LOVE THEM ALL type. Spy museum, was blah. I could of enjoyed it if I don't know what. It was just a blanch type of thing. and they didn't even teach you how to pick a lock with a hairclip. Just special tools that are hard to find. Its soooooo unfair. I probably can figure it out though. I jsut have to take the time. My dad came on the last day when we were in gettisburg (I was just holding a strangers hand because I just like older guys...) and it was fun. He got to meet some of you guys and see how I interact with you. Oh yeah. And he and I decided Jordyn is a basket case, because he used the empty bread bowl and put it on his head and proceded to tap me on the sholder to show me. I replied "nice job Jordyn. your the king of idiots." THen Mr. Jones proceded over to yell at him.

OHHHHHH funny joke. About ducks. Some of you may know it. If your curious, ask! ITs a little well, inapropiate, because It involves Jordyn and my dark humor. You know me, I find what is slightly challenging for you, and then I exploit it in humor. For jordyn, sexual jokes arn't challenging, hes just momentarily stunned that I can do it right back at him. :D not sure If I should be proud of my nimble wit sometimes. Having a silvertounge can get you in trouble. and silvertounge is actually a phrase, it just got used in the golden compass.

I have much more about the DC trip, but I'm toooo lazy to post it right now.

Got back from Cayman...

And I worked my ass off to catch up. While I was on the trip. and when I got back, I just followed the flow and got back on track. :-/ thats about it for that segment.

Forgot to say

B4 Cayman I was in NY with dad. I found out then that I got one of the leads in Little abner. And now I's a memberin' and recognizin' some kids in our grade and the roles they here got. No particular order.

McKenna Kring: Marryin' Samantha (sam)
Diana Rosenzweig: Daisy Mae
Jordyn Geiger: Little Abner
Max Radwin: Earthquake Magoon
Haley Schrier: Passionata Von Gothika
Jenny Pampreen: Moonbeam Mcswine

uhm, I should really update

I havn't updated in my journal either, so don't feel to deprived. I went to Cayman a long time ago, and never told you anything about it, so here is the whole kank and kaboodle, barrel of monkeys, and I'm letting the cat out of the bag.

There are VERY cute boys walking around on the beach. I had my eye on a few, but htey had gf's with them and they were never at a good angle to take pictures at. The Sunset's were amazing, and one of these days I'll make a gallery of all the pretty pictures. And yes, my mom was sneaky and got some pictures of me in a bathing suit. Because basically, thats the attire there. And at night you have to dress up for the beach parties, and yes one of the nights I wore a strapless black dress. I looked like Mortishia. Not sure if thats good or bad. I also got 2 fake tattoos while I was there. I had one between the "dimples" on my lower back (those two impressions that are extremely low on your back? yeah those) and one on my front left hip bone (tword the belly button side. It peeked out just above my bikini line). Yes, I decided where to place them, and no it isn't still there. I wasn't able to pet the stingray's again this year. To many choppy sea days :( Just if you wondering, Stingrays feel like soft sandpaper on the top, and wet mushrooms on the bottom, and no, they do not randomly pierce people through the heart. The crocodile hunter was in deep depths where the sting rays weren't used to people, and he scared the stingray. Stingray's are more gentle than my puppy, at least when she's on a good day. I've by mistake steped on at least 3 in the past years I've visited them, and nada happened. Another fun fact about them is that the female's are larger, and their mouths work like a vacume. So when you feed them, you keep your thumbs in and make a fist, the squid sticking out of the top. I did go parasailing, and was it FUNN!!!! I also went jet skiing, and that was also fun. Swimming was good, Virgin Pina Colada's and Strawberry daquaries and Strawberry and lime Daquaries and Bannana and Peach Smoothies, and Chocolate smoothies were also good. Homework was annoying but I did it all the same. Yay me.

Random Question

When you've got water stuck in your ear, how do you get it out?

Cartwheels and roundoffs.

just so you know...

I hardly ever post about my life. I'll probably just use this as a poetry gallery. :-/ So boohoo for all of you who actually care about me. You're going to have to talk to me about my life at school . Isn't it awful?

Caymans

I go off to the Caymans tommorow. :D YAYAYA So have fun at school. Its going to be an easy week of math for all of you. I did it already. I'll bring back cute pictures of the boys for all you girls, and maybe a few of me in all my scadolous Genie in a Bikini glory.

Yes Caleb, I'll wear short shorts, just for you...

The Begining.

The End. It is often the Begining to something new. At the trajic end of my Xanga, a new realm has burst. BLOGSPOT!!! I have only partly succumbed to the wills of my friends, for I have NOT gotten a Myspace.

This is a warning to all. I am morbid, cynical, and a glass-half-full type of gal. To notice the good I scrutinize the bad. I put myself down as low as possible, therefor becoming immune to people's comments. Need an Example? Kateland. Need I say more? If I snap at you, I'm sorry. But DEAL WITH IT. I go through mood swings having to deal with my life and chemicals. in my body. Not drugs. Don't even think it. Just because I like wine doesn't mean I'm an alcoholic. I just have a finer palate that can enjoy the divine ambrosia's of a larger plate of food. If you hear a rumor about me, ask me. If I'm bothering you in some way, tell me. Honesty and openness is something I treasure, and secrets and privacy is something I respect.

This will be a place for me to post my poems and only occasionally post about my life. For my life is dull, and no one would care about it. wait no, it isn't that no one would care, its NO ONE TRIES. Society may know your favorite color, or what shops you shop at, but they don't know how many siblings you have, or if a family member has died, or if your in a fight with your parents. No one really KNOWS eachother. THey just bumble, or more specifically, they dance through life. If you have an objection, please state it here. thats what I thought. You agree full heartedly. Enjoy, Hate, and love.

~Sorrow